Update

WOW, it has been so long since I have written anything.

 Been a hard few month for me. My Partner (who is significantly older) and I are currently going through our second IVF cycle (thanks to a past vasectomy). This cycle appears to have given a better result than the last one back in February and March. At 30, and with no fertility problems of my own (Hubby has three children from his first marriage, so there are no problems there) you would think that all should go well for us but our first cycle was heartbreaking and I'm terrified that the same thing will happen again.

Cycle 1 results - 6 eggs collected, 5 mature and 4 successfully fertilised (via ICSI with Hubby's sperm), 3 day transfer - none to freeze, spotting during anxiety filled waiting period and a negative blood test result :o(

Cycle 2 results - 8 eggs collected, 8 mature and 7 successfully fertilised (via ICSI with Hubby's frozen sperm from previous cycle), 5 day transfer - 4 to freeze!! - currently undergoing the anxiety filled waiting period with blood test to be taken on 8th July   

I wish I knew the result, each trip to the loo fills me with dread..... I can only hope (and pray) that all has gone right for us this cycle. I can console myself that if this embryo hasn't implanted I still have a few chances before going through the rounds of injections once again. Wish me luck (although implantation would have already occurred by now, if it was going to)

I know that no-one really reads this blog but it helps to talk (or type) about things, and to express my feelings. This is something that I want so much and I'm afraid of having my heart broken again.

Thank you for reading